For me, the hardest thing in the world is trying to let go of what my mind tells me. I can never follow my heart, and in a lot of ways it’s really depressing to never let yourself be able to throw away shit and take a risk. In a lot of ways I need to get out of my head. I need to just jump into a situation and be able to so what I need to get what I want, but sometimes I get crippled by my thoughts.

My unconscious has probably come to this conclusion after the tons and tons of bad decisions my desires have lead me to, but deep down in side I want to be able to just tell someone I love how I feel and about all of the potential I see in the possible moving forward of our relationship. I really love this person, but I value them too much as a friend to risk losing them to a bad decision or a bad prediction. It’s feels better to have that person in your life as a friend rather than have them out of your life as someone who hates you. Y’know?